Crabby Hang Time

It's that time of the semester again. When I break out with pimples, am extremely grumpy, and am obsessed with obtaining good grades.

I can feel summer coming, and I'm extremely anxious for school to be over. I am excited about the summer days on the beach, sunlight until 8:30ish, and it'll be ice cream season! Oh, how I cannot wait. :)

So if you see me in the next few days... don't mention my pimply face, and ignore my grumpiness. I'll be good as new after finals.

Yay. Then it's job hunting time. OH BOY...

But maybe I'll reward myself with a new camera. The prospect of that makes me wildly happy. Be still my heart, you'll get it soon enough.

Little Hang

Note: I still make these faces when I am confused. Apparently my whole life is a big confusion.

Since my camera is broken, I thought I'd put up some pictures of the past. I was cuter back then anyway. :) I have always liked going through my little Hang pictures. How was I ever that small?! It always makes me miss Japan, but I remember my childhood with great fondness.

See that coat above? It was my favorite coat growing up. I always wore it, and I remember thinking my favorite part of the coat was its buttons. That coat is in so many of my pictures, and I can't help but miss it. I really do.

I've now become obsessed with cute coats, and can never resist a coat if they have those kind of buttons. I'm still on a mission to find a coat just like my childhood coat. I don't know if I'll ever find one, but I'm determined to. I have a need to relive a part of my childhood. 

Note: I'm the girl in yellow. Don't I look a bit sad?

Frances had asked me to put up a picture of me wearing a kimono. I tried to look for them, but I didn't want to spend all day looking for them. I found this one of me in preschool wearing a kimono. Every year during your birth month, the teachers would dress us up, and give us a birthday show. I've always remembered liking the shows, and being excited that is was my birthday. I would always wear the yellow kimono with the animal prints. Oh, what fond memories.

Oh dear, I really miss my childhood in Japan now. I think I need to go for a visit. Anyone with me?

P.S. Frances, you need to post a blog before this becomes my blog. Hahaha. :)

Frances wants to write before May is over!

Hi Blog readers!



I should write more. I think I MIGHT catch up with Hang by the end of June if I write about 2 blogs a day.



So my life lately has been revolving around working and volunteering. On Thursdays I get to volunteer at Project Wildlife and feed baby birds! They are soooo cute! There are scrub jays, mocking birds, finches, sparrows, doves, ravens and lots more! Alas, it is sad that they fall out of trees and have to be taken to us, but they do eventually get to go back into the wild! Then on Fridays I volunteer at the vet where I get to hug dogs. Actually.... I guess there is more to it than that, but I would be happy just hugging dogs all day. Today I got to give sub-cutaneous shots, shave and prep a dog for surgery and feed a baby bird dog food. The last one is a bit unusual. They found a baby bird last night and I'm going to drop it off at project wildlife before work today. Work. SIGH. It's the bane of my existance. I wish I just owned a money tree so I could spend my days volunteering instead of working.

Wells, that's it for now... I need a visit from Hang. I haven't seen her in FOREVER. I also want more vegetarian food. Tofu is good. Oh! and California paninis... mmmm... *drools*

Hang Likes Eye Balls

I really like eyes. They are the first thing I usually notice on someone. I've always had a tendency to stare or gaze into someones eyes for long periods of time. I can get lost in someones eyes for hours.

Eyes are just so pretty. There's something about them that keeps me mesmerized.  

So if or when I see you, don't mind if I stare into your eyes...

Hang Has Sandy Toes

Before my camera officially stopped working for some reason, I went to the beach and took some random pictures. I must restate for the 200th time that I just ADORE the beach. It is my happy place.

I love taking pictures of feet for some reason. I even liked the fact that my toes were really sandy. I have always hated getting dirty, but for some reason, it has never grossed me out to roll around on beach sand.

For some reason, I've always liked writing on the sand. I even adore making sand castles and sand balls. I'm never going to grow up.

Sunsets are BEAUTIFUL... I can look at them all day. Everyday.

It's also interesting when someone weird is with you...

Boohoo For Hang

Camera officially broke. DANG. :( A piece of me has died. 

Hair Party

What do we do on a Monday afternoon? Get our hair done. I came in with slightly wavy hair, and came out with straight hair. Frances came in with straight hair, and came out with wavy hair. :)

We wanted a change, and we got it. I was getting tired of my not really wavy hair that wouldn't do what I wanted it to. I hadn't realized that I missed having straight hair. 

Why can't I ever just stick to something?

People Visit Hang

I love it when people I haven't seen in awhile stop by to say hello. They made me happy because they gave me an excuse to take a break from doing my evil bankruptcy assignment. We even took a walk to Jamba Juice. I seriously couldn't have been any more happier. :)

Hang Lost Once Again

I don't want to be whiny, but I seriously can never get a legal internship. I don't know if I'm just not selling myself or if I'm just not competitive enough. 

My rejection e-mails ALWAYS states that they have given the position to a law student. I can't compete with a law student. I always lose to them. I just want to be a paralegal in a law firm. 

I'm going to graduate soon, and I can't even get an internship. I can't even work for free. I hope this isn't an omen for the future.

Oh dear. I hope this doesn't continue for long. I'll just have to try harder...

San Diego will be Hang's Future Home

San Diego is always such a treat for me. I'm in love with their weather, their food, and all the cool places in San Diego. But the thing I love the most is their beaches. The beach has always been one of my happy places, and I can always muddle through my thoughts there. I've realized that being in nature is where I am most at peace. From Zion to the caves of New Mexico, it's always in nature that I am most content. 

Have I ever told you who the most beautiful girl in my life is? It's that girl. She's my best friend, my kindred spirit, the better version of me, and the person who bought me the concert ticket. She also brought me happiness when she introduced me to the most delicious burrito in the world.

I was extremely sick, but the trip was definitely worth it. The beach is also worth it. I think even if I was running a high fever, I'd still want to be at the beach.

We even saw some dolphins are the beach. That was so AMAZING! I've never seen dolphins in the wild, and they were swimming really close to the shore. There were a lot of surfers out there, and the dolphins just swam by. 

The concert was a lot of fun. They were amazing, and sounded great live. I always get disappointed because a lot of bands sound awful when you hear them live. Not Flight of the Conchords. They are as charming live as they are on television.

We also had dinner. We ate delicious Japanese food. Mmmmmmmmmm!

Frances ended the night with being sexy on my car. I had a lot of fun, and it's one of the best birthday presents ever. How I love you, San Diego. You'll be seeing me more often. Bet on it.

Hang is EXTREMELY Depressed

I broke my camera. I sat or laid on it, and now the lens is broken. I am heart broken, depressed, and I am taking it as a sign to buy a T1i. 

UPDATED: It works again! I fixed it, but it's being grumpy, and only working when it wants to. 

UPDATED 5/27/09: BROKE AGAIN.

Hang's Ode to the BEST Burrito Ever

I had the most amazing vegetarian burrito yesterday. It was HUGE. It had FRENCH FRIES. It changed my life. It made me happy. Then it also made me sad when I forgot to take home the rest of my burrito. 

P.S. Concert was AMAZING, and I had the best time. More on that later. I have to study and do bankruptcy stuff. Boooo.

Bad Movies are Funny to Hang

I just watched a movie called Lake Placid over the weekend. It was a Sunday, and because I have no cable, I was limited to choices that are on regular television. 

At first I thought the movie would be a scary movie. As I continued to watch the movie, I realized that the movie is extremely cheesy. How can anyone make a crocodile scary? I always thought they were kind of cute. They are just misunderstood. 

I was laughing during the entire movie. When I was deciding if I liked the movie or not, I realized that I like a lot of bad movies because they amuse me. Maybe the movie wasn't meant to be a comedy, but the lines in the movie were just so bad. Don't get me wrong, I don't like all bad/stupid movies. A lot of movies try too hard, and end up being extremely lame.

Lake Placid was so bad that I ended up liking it. They should definitely change the genre of the movie to comedy.

Hang's Going to a CONCERT

Tomorrow will get to be my fun day! I'm going to be driving down to San Diego (alone...) to visit my dear friend (who also needs to blog again), and we're going to party like a rock star. She has already promised me an amazing veggie burrito... What a treat! 

We're going to see Flight of the Conchords, and I'm just so excited. Not only do I get to hang out with my favorite girl, I get to go to a concert?! I don't think my heart can take it. Haha.

I am feeling a bit guilty though. I have a test Thursday morning, and a quiz Thursday night. But have I even started studying yet? Not really. :( 

Oh wells. I'm going to hit the books now...

Hang's Love

Note: This is fried tofu with some veggies in it. I like to eat it with ketchup. :)

Have I told you that I love tofu? That it makes me seriously happy to eat it? It's the love of my life... just like the other million things I claim I can't live without. 

Hang has Cravings

Ugh, I crave chicken, Korean BBQ, sausage, etc. I have a panic attack when I am anywhere near meat. Sometimes, it's the smell that gets to me... How do i reverse almost 23 years of eating meat?

It is hard, but I've been amazingly good. I haven't broke (not that I haven't been tempted), and my will power hasn't been shaken. I'm really surprised actually. I remember giving up meat for lent 5 years ago, and thinking it was the devil. I couldn't wait until I could eat meat again, and I would count the days. It was that bad.

This time it is much easier (even though it is hard), but I think it's because I want it more. I want to give it up because I believe in the cause. It's because I care now, and I want to do this for as long as I can. 

But I definitely need to eat less cheese. It's seriously my weakness. :(

Baby Shower and Hang

Note: Sorry, I should of turned off my flash.

I love baby showers. I love the colors, the games, and the snacks. I have to admit... I love a party with delicious snacks. Food either makes or breaks a party for me. When the party serves dark chocolate covered strawberries, strawberry shortcake (with ice cream!), spinach and artichoke dip, and carrots sticks (there was a lot more, but I couldn't eat it)... it's automatically a FABULOUS party. Add an adorable baby, and it's like the best day of my life. 

Note: Haha, I had to draw an elephant. 

We even got to decorate onesies! I seriously love the idea of having people you love draw pictures on onesies for your baby to wear. I mean who wouldn't want personalized clothing?

Note: Suzanna is being artistic, and creating an adorable onesie.

The party was for my old boss, and she's simply adorable preggers. I want to be as cute as she is if I ever get pregnant. 

Now I am waiting for some of my friends to have kids (hint, hint), so I can steal them. That way I don't have to ever give birth. Just kidding about the stealing part... or am I?

Hang is Waiting for the Weekend

I feel like I am always waiting for Thursday to finish, so I can have the weekend to relax, and be lazy. I seriously count down the days until the weekend. Is that bad? I live for the weekends...

It's not like my life is bad or even that stressful. I just look forward to sleeping in, and doing nothing. A lot of people would consider that being lazy, and a waste of time, but I have a need to do nothing. It's what helps me relieve my stress. It's what keeps me from going insane. It's what keeps me happy.

That's why I'm thankful Thursday is almost over. Well, I have to get through my bankruptcy class and midterm first... :(

What Shall Hang Do Next?

I'm been thinking a lot of what I want to do when I finally get my paralegal degree... What if I don't ever find a job? I don't want to be a lazy bum, and depend on my parents forever. I don't think they can even take care of me for that much longer. I always feel guilty having to depend on them too. I am already 23, and my parents still take care of me? FOR SHAME.

That is why I MUST get a job this summer. 

There is so much more schooling that I want to do though. I want to be a geology major and dig rocks, play by volcanoes or predict the next major earthquake. I really want to dip my toes into this, so I think I will... I plan on continuing school, and working by day. 

I really hope I can do it. 

Hang Collects

I've always had this weird habit of where I would collect everything. I've collected everything from napkins to key chains to movie stubs. I have a very bad habit of keeping everything. I admit it, I'm a bit of a rat pack. It's an obsession, really. 

Currently in my room; I have a Disney pin, salt & pepper, sticker, coin, stamp, book, movie, and elephant collection. That is after I had just recently cleaned out my room. I am the queen at keeping things that aren't useful. It pains me to throw away anything. It hurts. My mom is always telling me to get rid of things, but I can't because I've grown an attachment to most of my things. It's an illness, I tell you!

I just went to the post office today to buy some stamps (because they raised the price), and I came home with three different sheets of stamps. I can't help it. I have to collect them all. I don't even know why I do it. What am I going to do with a bunch of stamps? It really bothers me to send mail using normal stamps. 

Am I crazy, and just have an obsessive personality? Probably... Haha

What Hang Listens to Cure the Blues

I know I've been really complainy lately, but it's because I'm under a lot of stress. I think I am a bit dramatic, and create a lot of unnecessary stress for myself. I know you all are shaking your heads at me. I am an overanalyzer, and tend to think things are more difficult than it really is.

I usually listen to music to relieve my stress. I like to listen to things that remind me of my childhood or happy memories when I am feeling stressed. Here's a list of some of the songs that always perks me up:

1. Wake Me Up Before You Go Go
2. Time After Time
3. Keep On Loving You
4. You Can't Hurry Love (My personal favorite)
5. Against All Odds
6. True colors
7. Dreaming of You
8. All Out of Love
9. All You Need is Love
10. Hello Goodbye

Apparently I am really into the oldies. Yeah, they make me happy-happy-joy-joy!

Bankruptcy Will Be the Death of Hang

I should be studying for my quiz tonight. Maybe I should even look at my bankruptcy petitions again to make sure I did it correctly. Maybe I should actually read my textbook. Either way, I'm too lazy to do it. I don't know why I can't get into this class, and be a good student. I'm already tired of the class, and I've only been in it for a month. I have another month to go, and it's slowly killing me. My stomach clenches when I know I have to go to class soon. That's never a good feeling. I used to have that feeling when I went to work at a place I really hated. Those were not good times.

I'm been pretty grumpy lately. The stress is starting to get to me. I seriously just want to go to the beach and build sandcastles all the day or go hiking in a national park. I don't want to do any thinking. Because when I think, I keep thinking about what is going to happen when I get my paralegal degree. Will I sit around until I give up, and get a random job? I need this career to work for me. I need to have a job in the summer. I need to start making a bit of money to contribute to my household. The thought of not being able to find a job really scares me. I have no backup plan if that happens.

Ugh. I don't know what to do. I just don't know...

The Love of Hang's Life

I want the Rebel T1i so very much. It's the most beautiful thing I have ever laid my eyes on. (Well, the other Canon cameras make my heart swoon too... Maybe I just love all Canon cameras.) It's definitely love... at least on my part. It's the newer version of the Xsi, and I've been drooling for a DSLR camera for a really long time now. Canon has made this model way cooler, and it can now shoot videos. Be still my beating heart. 

I don't know if I should bite, and just get it now or wait awhile. Maybe I should wait until they have a really good deal when it's a little bit older. It's just that I've been dying for a DSLR camera for awhile now. I really want to be able to take fantastic pictures at all the future weddings I am attending. I love pictures of people, and I love photographing places I go to. 

I don't know though. It is pretty expensive. Maybe I should settle for the Xsi since it's a lot cheaper now... 

Hang is Uncertain

Do you ever wonder if you are making the right decision? That this is how it's suppose to be?

I hate that feeling. The fear that people will judge my decisions. The fact that I know their opinion shouldn't matter, but yet it does. I want to make the right choice all the time, so I tend to over analyze every situation, and every decision as if they all have secret meanings. 

I don't know what I want. I don't know what I need. I don't know how to make it go away. I just want to go back to how things used to be. Ignorance is bliss, and I completely agree with that statement. 

I realize that I make everything in my life complicated, but just once... I wish the answer would just come to me...

Maybe I will just sweep it under the rug... I seriously don't know what else to do.

Hang has Neglected to Write

Oh boy, I haven't blogged in awhile, and I really do miss it. There just isn't enough hours in a day for me to fit everything in. I've been crammed with assignments, quizzes, tests, and school concerts. I spend my days being tired, and stressing over school. It's that time in the semester again where I loose my hair, break out, and am grumpy all the time. I am usually in a funk a month before school ends. I don't understand why teachers like to throw everything at you at the end of the semester. GRUMBLE GRUMBLE...

I'm going to miss this abuse, sadly. I don't know what's going to happen when I am done with school. I probably will miss it so much that I will return the next semester. Haha. My brother once told me that school is like an abusive relationship. You get abused and you complain, but for some reason you always come back for more. I think I wouldn't mind being in school forever.

I'm probably not going to write as often as I would like to, but I still am planning on updating this blog once in awhile because the truth is... I'm addicted to blogging.

Hang's Pretend Photography Gig

I like taking pictures, but I'm not very good. I'm not even close. I like to look at photography equipments sometimes, and dream about owning them one day. I like to think that someday I'll own photoshop, and be able to master it. I love everything about photography. It really is something I can imagine loving for the rest of my life. 

Note: The flower is too centered. I should of focused it more , and done other things. Eh, I wasn't thinking when I did this.

Frances mom had me take pictures of her plants the other day. I'm not sure why she thought I was a photographer. Teresa told me just to pretend I was doing something fancy, and so I did. It was fun, but seriously, all I did was point and shoot. Oh, how a fancy DSLR camera would of been perfect for this project.

Frances mom told me she loved the pictures, so if it's good enough for her, I guess then it's fine.

I seriously LOVE macro shots. I think they are my favorite. They are so beautiful, and I love how the background is blurry. It makes me focus on the subject some more. I want to try bokeh when I have a DSLR.

The kids were watching me as I was taking pictures. They were really excited just to see me. I thought that was a bit strange, and realized they just needed more excitement in their young lives, so I took them to get some ice cream. Every kid likes ice cream, right? I remember how much I used to love eating ice cream on a school night. I know, I sure had a crazy sense of adventure as a child. Haha.

Note: Look at the shirt Mariana got Jennifer. It's so cute!

Haha. The kids make me laugh. Especially since I got to torture Jimmy with the Hannah Montana soundtrack. I know he secretly loves it. 

Look at me. Don't I look crazy? Well, maybe I am a bit. This is how I feel about coffee ice cream. :)

And that my friends is what I call a good day...