Breaking Habits

Oh goodness, I think I lack self control. I believe I may like instant gratification a little more than the average person. I have issues, people!

What are my issues? I can't... I can't stop drinking soda or eat outing at work every single day. I can see the judgment in all of your eyes. I sense disapproval. What is that? I'm being paranoid? Maybe, but it doesn't change the fact that it's a habit that I would like to change.

I used to be so good at bringing my own lunch and only drinking water where ever I went. I never faltered or strayed from being good with with my drink and lunch choices.

Until one day I had too much soda and discovered that there was so many delicious places to try near my work, and I have be bad ever since.

I think it would be easier to not eat out so often, but I don't know how I am going to give up soda. I'm a Coke addict. I suffer from withdrawals and often think about how refreshing a soda would be.

Maybe I'll just take baby steps. I'll start by pack my meals every other day. That should work, right? There is still hope for me, right? I'll learn to be a good cook eventually. Yeah, I'll keep telling myself that. :)

What I Feared

I've always known that my wisdom teeth were a problem. When I had braces as a teenager, I had to remove 4 of my permanent teeth in order to correct the overcrowding in my jaw. I will now have to remove all 4 of my wisdom teeth because the teeth are impacted.

I can't even chew sometimes without feeling a slight pain. At first I had thought that I had cavities and that my teeth were somehow rotting. I guess it's a relief that I just have to remove a few of my teeth rather have many root canals. I can be quite dramatic though, so I'm really fearful that this is going to be one of the worst experiences of my life.

Either way, send me some soup when I have surgery this month.

Car Twins

Does anyone else get excited when you drive down the road and see a car that is exactly like yours? I know I do. I'm always tempted to wave at them and imagine what kind of friendship we would have. Would they like the same movies I do or listen to the same radio station? After all, we do have excellent taste in cars, why wouldn't that be reflected in our daily life?

I even give the person extra bonus points if they have the same color car as I do. It's like we must be kindred spirits, right? How else could I explain the fact that we have the same car? Someone with the same taste as me must be pretty awesome. :)

An Update

It has been a long time since I wrote anything. To be honest, I lost a lot of motivation to write. Things were just becoming stagnant, and I didn't really have anything to say or have anything I felt that was worth writing about. Maybe it was a mixture of laziness and the fact that my life was becoming a bit dry.

I have a lot to be thankful for. I have a nice car, a job that pays me more than a lot of jobs, and a good set of friends and family that I communicate with on a regular basis. I shouldn't complain, but I find myself looking for more. I still seek to travel, to discover new things, and for some things to be different.

There are a lot of things that have occurred in the last few months:

1. I have a new position at work which can be both rewarding and difficult. It's nice to be able to challenge myself in a new position. It's usually the people that makes a job terrible or fun, and I have to say that most people I have to deal with on a day to day basis are a lot fun. Some of them let me pick and bully them which amuses me.

2. Bear is still Bear. He still have more energy than any dog I have ever met. He still gets into trouble daily, and has yet to let me really cuddle him. I realize that my dog is aloof, and I accept him for that. He's always going to be that dog that follows me around and nips my hand. I love that dog, and I think he knows that he has me wrapped around his paw.

3. I started dating, and that was an interesting experience. There's a lot I don't know regarding dating protocols. There's apparently a lot that I have missed out on in my youth. Dating is interesting because you get to meet a whole different set of people you normally wouldn't, and it's nice to be able to go out with different people. It's also nerve racking when you don't know what to say or know how the other person feels. I could go on and on about what I've learned.

4. Which leads me to #4. I've met someone nice. I've met someone that makes me laugh. Yes, I have a boyfriend.

5. Through my daily struggles, I'm learning more and more about myself. I'm learning what makes me happy, and it's nice to think of yourself once in awhile. For awhile, I was losing myself  to my responsibilities and daily life, but when I stopped to think about it, there is still so much for me to be happy about. I still have yet to experience a lot of things, and I know my time will come. I will make sure it will.

Those are just some thoughts that I had during the last few weeks. I lost a lot of motivation and was stuck in a rut for awhile. I think I'm coming out of it, and I'm a lot happier now. Happier with who I am.

Bonus photo:

New Car

I got a new car over the weekend, and I'm so excited about it! It's always exciting to get something new, but I feel like buying a new car makes such a big impact on your life. It's going to be the thing that you drive for the years to come, and something that you will be stuck with for a long time.

So when I got a great deal on a new Subaru Impreza, I was giddy from happiness. It's a car I love, and it came with so many accessories. Heated seats? Bluetooth? Yes please! Getting extra things was just the icing on the cake.

The car is big and blue. It's definitely a lot different than my last car, but I think this is a good change. It was starting to get really inconvenient when I would have to store things in the back seats of my Yaris because I would buy too many things at Costco.

There was a lot of advantages for driving a little car (like being able to make the weirdest, most awkward turns and parking in small spaces), but my Yaris will still be in my life, and I'll be able to drive a better car.

I love purchases that makes me this happy. I definitely do not have buyer's remorse. Haha.

Bye Bye Hair

I finally decided to take the plunge. I finally decided it was time to let my hair go. It was time to donate my hair. My long and very unruly hair was taking over my life. I would find it on the floor, in my car, on my dog, and even on my desk at work.

It took a very long time to get it long, and a part of me didn't want to let it go. I spent all this time growing it out, and it was a part of me. Plus change is always hard. It's always hard to try something new (even if I end up liking it). It's always hard to let go what is comfortable because I never know if I'm going to like whatever is new.

My mother ended up chopping off a lot more hair than I expected and at first I felt naked. As time went on, I started to get used to it, and then it grew on me. It's pretty dramatic, but I've learned to just deal with it. Hair grows back, right? I tell myself it's only temporary.

At the end of the day, I'm happy that I donated my hair. I'm happy to be able to make a small difference in some way. :)