Lazy Day

I used to have lazy days when I didn't work full time, and I remember waking up at noon on the weekends, and sleeping late at night. I loved being able to nothing all day, and getting to relax all the time. I would say I was lazy back then. 

Ever since I got a full time job and a dog, I wake up at the same time everyday even during the weekend. I no longer sleep in, and must make sure all the chores are done over the weekend because I have no time during the weekdays. I also have to go to work on the weekends. If I have any free time then it is dedicated to my puppy. 

But on Sunday, everything worked out that I didn't have to work, and that all my chores were done. I spent my day watching movies and doing nothing. My puppy even behaved and napped all day because it was so hot. It was blissful to have a day where I could do whatever I pleased, and we all just ate sandwiches for dinner (very little effort involved. Hey don't judge me! It was too hot to eat anything else.).

Because these days do not happen often, it was an extra nice day for me. The only thing that was terrible about my day was the fact that is was extremely hot, but even the heat couldn't ruin my day. Lazy days really are great. :)

Where Have I Been?!

It has been a long time since I last wrote a blog entry. A lot has happened since I last wrote, but at the same time very little has changed. I am still doing the same thing, but I have a precious new puppy in my life.

 Often times I have an urge to write or blog about random thoughts or feelings, but it really has been hard for me to actually sit down to do it or even come up with the words I want to use to express how I feel. I feel like I have been overwhelmed lately. Overwhelmed with all the little things.

 I have adjusted to sleeping very little to make sure I can work full time, do all the house chores, and take care of my puppy. Those things are fine. That's part of growing up, you get a lot of responsibilities. But what is very hard is having to deal emotionally with realizing your parents are older, dealing with a pile of debt, and having to make sure you do everything that needs to be done.

 Sometimes I wonder why I got a puppy because it just added to my daily load. My puppy is a very hyper and mischievous dog, but knows exactly what to do to make me laugh. He's not a lap dog and would rather bite my hand then let me cuddle him, but he knows when I need the most comfort and will lie on my lap for short (5 minutes max) periods of time even though he hates to be still. Sometimes I feel like he is more trouble than I can handle, but I know I love him.

 My grandfather is dying, and it is something that is very hard for my mother. It pains me to watch her cry all the time, and there is nothing I can do to console her. She is 62 and her parents are still alive. I hope when I am 62 she will be alive, but I know that the chances of that is very slim. Even the thought of losing my parents makes me tear up.

 I did have a lot of fun in the last few months. I got to visit my oldest and dearest friend in Minnesota. I honestly don't know what I was expecting, but Minnesota is very beautiful. I had so much fun going on hikes, looking for lighthouses, and going to Wisconsin for pants (haha). Traveling to new places really does make my heart happy, and it's something I wish I could do more often. I have lots of dreams and most of them involves traveling throughout the world. I want to see the world, and someday I know I will go somewhere amazing.

 I can't believe it took this long for me to finally post on my blog, but it is something that I really missed. I used to spend so much time writing about my feelings, and it was so great to be able to vent (even if no one ever reads it). Now that I remember how nice it is to blog, I will TRY to do it more often. :)