As Sick as I can be

*Achoooooooooo* Excuse me. I have been feeling a little bit sick the last few days. I felt the stuffiness of my nose, and I was frequently sneezing, but I had thought it would go away with time. I had those little symptoms for the last few days, but I had ignored them.

Now there's a tickle in my throat, and I can't stop coughing or wiping my nose. Oh dear, I hate when I am sick. I always feel so fatigued, and I can never get anything done. Maybe that's an excuse to stay in bed and read. That could be a relaxing Saturday, but I have so much to do. Taking my mother to the dentist, and tons of chores and homework. Speaking of taking my mother to the dentist, I should be asleep. Her appointment it at 8am, and I don't want to not be able to get out of bed tomorrow morning.

I am currently amused with this "Where is Waldo?" postcard book that I have had for awhile. Is it weird to spend hours looking for Waldo, and being blissfully happy doing it? I can explain my childlike nature... It's from my dad. He still loves watching Tom and Jerry every night before he goes to bed, and he's almost 60. It's no wonder my brother and I are still childlike. :)

Lots of Dreams

I am a daydreamer. I always have crazy day dreams too. Sometime they are incredibly unrealistic, but they always get me through the day. I think it's a coping mechanism for me when I am really stressed out. Instead of dooming myself, I daydream.

Sometimes my dreams are fantasies. I like to think about what I would do if I won the lottery. All the trips I'd go on. All the food I would eat. All the stress I wouldn't have. I think it's really important to me not to try not to be so financially stressed out in the future. I don't want to have to have a lot of debt, and be financially unstable. That's scary.

A lot of times, my dreams are more reasonable. I dream about my perfect job, and how I would love to go to work. I dream about being able to take care of my parents, and how they will play with their grandchildren. As much as I would love to be rich, all I really want is be comfortable with my family.

Maybe I am too much of a dreamer and am unrealistic, but it's what gives me hope about my future. It's a scary time right now with the economy. I want sometime to look forward to so I won't freak out. :)

Simple Pleasures

I've been busy with school, with life, with maintaining my home, with a bunch of other things that I didn't have any time to sit around and read a book. I remember I used to spend all my free time reading, and that I would always lose sleep because I could never put a good book down. (I have a problem with self control.) I have not read a book in such a long time that I forgot how much pleasure I get from reading.

I took my mother to dentist today, and I knew it would take awhile. I wanted to bring my textbook to study, but figured it would be too bulky. I decided to grab a book that someone gave me to read. I figured I'd enjoy something fun to read.

The book was good enough for me not to put down. After I spent the day doing all of my errands and chore, I read until I finished the book. I cried when I was reading the book. When was the last time that happened? I forgot how much I loved to read, and how it felt to read a good book. I enjoyed it so much that I spent the rest of the day reading other books that I have been meaning to read. Oh simple pleasures...

Speaking of simple pleasures... Remember how I told you I love the show Property Brothers? I have a major celebrity crush on the Scott twins, and decided to write a message to them, and they wrote back. Oh how that made me swoon. I love it when people aren't too cool to answer your messages. I now have an even greater adoration for them. :)

Reality Television

I don't know why or when or even how this happened, but I am obsessed with home shows now. I have no fashion sense, I wear t-shirts and jeans everyday, My house is not modern or fashionable at all, and I don't know anything about homes.

But... I have been obsessed with Property Brothers. It's basically a show about two brothers who help people buy fixer uppers and transform those homes into their dream homes.

I watch a lot of home shows, and I usually laugh at what the designers come up with. Flower prints on walls? No thanks. Lime green walls? Ummm... way too bright. When I watch Property Brothers, I can't help but feel I want that home! I love their designs, and I feel like they are so clever. The people who buys these homes are so demanding and annoying. It's like I love to hate these people. I want to be on their show! Anyone have lots of money to give me?

Don't get me started on reality television. I can watch it for HOURS, and be so glued to the t.v. I watch cooking competitions, I watch Pawn Stars, I watch so many useless things when I have the time. I am just an addict.

I try to limit myself, but when I think about it... I watch a few hours a week. Help me! I should be studying! Haha

Happy Birthday, Mama!

It's my mama's 61st birthday today. I cry when I think about how old she is. Don't get me wrong, I don't have anything against old people. I think I actually get along with them better than people my own age. It's just that I know she's getting older... Does that make any sense? It's like I see how weak she is getting, and I fear that someday she won't be with me anymore. That would be terrible. I get teary eyed every time I think about, so we won't... It is her birthday after all!

We had an interesting day yesterday as we (my brother and I) took her to the dentist. Today will be great though! I'm going to buy her all of her favorite foods, and we'll eat til we can't anymore. :)

Happy birthday, Mommy. I know you won't read this, but I had to tell the world how much you mean to me. I love you.

Currently, I am...

In a jumble state of mixed emotions. I don't know if I'm stressed, excited or simply have gone crazy. That last sentence doesn't even make any sense, but I feel like I don't make any sense most of the time.

I worry too much. I know that I am always in a constant state of worry. I worry if I have enough money to get through the month. I worry if I'm going to get an A on an assignment because I am obsessed with getting a good grade. I worry about things that haven't even happened. I know I over think, but it's hard for me not to.

I'm really enjoying my Anthropology classes. It's exciting to learn about people. Is that weird to say? I just love learning about people's struggles. (Not that I want them to struggle. I just love learning about cultures. It makes me cry. It makes me deeply sad. It makes me want to make a change. It something that is constantly on my mind. I imagine myself living in impoverish conditions, and I think. I want to go there. Sometimes I feel an urge to join the peace corp.

Halloween is around the corner, and I have been going to these Halloween mazes that has been scaring me to the point of tears. I give in to peer pressure to easily, and am forced to go through mazes with creepy monsters/ghost/deformed humans chasing me. I think I scream at least three times for every 5 minute maze.

I have lots of crazy thoughts in my head. I really have become a daydreamer lately. It keeps me happy when I think about all the places where I will travel to or all the food I'll get to experience someday. Oh happy thoughts keeps me happy. :)