I should be studying for my quiz tonight. Maybe I should even look at my bankruptcy petitions again to make sure I did it correctly. Maybe I should actually read my textbook. Either way, I'm too lazy to do it. I don't know why I can't get into this class, and be a good student. I'm already tired of the class, and I've only been in it for a month. I have another month to go, and it's slowly killing me. My stomach clenches when I know I have to go to class soon. That's never a good feeling. I used to have that feeling when I went to work at a place I really hated. Those were not good times.
I'm been pretty grumpy lately. The stress is starting to get to me. I seriously just want to go to the beach and build sandcastles all the day or go hiking in a national park. I don't want to do any thinking. Because when I think, I keep thinking about what is going to happen when I get my paralegal degree. Will I sit around until I give up, and get a random job? I need this career to work for me. I need to have a job in the summer. I need to start making a bit of money to contribute to my household. The thought of not being able to find a job really scares me. I have no backup plan if that happens.
Ugh. I don't know what to do. I just don't know...
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