I have turned completely cheesy in the last month, and have grown an addiction to the Disney channel. Don't judge, I bet most of you would not be able to resist once you start watching. (Even if it's not true, humor me so I can feel better. Haha.)
Things started to change for me when I was stuck in Canada for weeks babysitting Disney channel addicted children. At first I rolled me eyes at all of those silly shows, but then I started to find myself enjoying them.
Sonny With a Chance became the must watch show. I came home on my vacation and watched all the episodes of the first two seasons in 5 days. Netflix became an even bigger addiction as they would suggest to me other Disney shows that I would like.
I am already a really cheesy person with the sense of humor of a 12 year old. These shows appeal to my inner child/teenager.
It's crazy, but I just can't stop watching those silly shows. I now know how Hannah Montana ends, I am madly in love with Demi Lovato's character in Sonny With a Chance, and I have watched way too many made for tv movies.
Help. I am an addict, and I need to quit! But it's so good... but it's so time consuming... AHHHH!
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Friday, January 28, 2011
Past/ Future
Sometimes I look back on things, and think how nice it would be to live in the past again. I wish I could go back to some memories where I was happiest. Those summer days lounging around with the best friend, the days when I had someone to share my banana split with, those countless hours painting each other's toes (Mostly my toes were painted. I am a pampered princess.), and my childhood (Mostly miss spending a lot of time with my parents).
It's easy to want to go back to things when life was easy, but I realized that if you just spend all your time wanting to go back in time, you'll just miss out on the present, and pretty much destroy your future.
I hate how I can't control what happens to me because a lot of time I end up hurt. I just have to take what life hands me, and basically take responsibility for the things that happen to me. I can't control how my extended family treats me, but I can control how they effect my life.
I'm making a commitment this year to make sure that I am doing the things I need to do to make sure that I will be happy in the future. No more hoping for the best result. I'm going to shake up life this year because I am finally ready to do it.
I'll miss the past. I'll miss the memories. I'll miss the people. But it's time for something new. It's time to get over it, and stop blaming others for my unhappiness.
(I realize that my post are starting to get a little cheesy or cliché, but I have a need to express it. I always feel better when I do.)
It's easy to want to go back to things when life was easy, but I realized that if you just spend all your time wanting to go back in time, you'll just miss out on the present, and pretty much destroy your future.
I hate how I can't control what happens to me because a lot of time I end up hurt. I just have to take what life hands me, and basically take responsibility for the things that happen to me. I can't control how my extended family treats me, but I can control how they effect my life.
I'm making a commitment this year to make sure that I am doing the things I need to do to make sure that I will be happy in the future. No more hoping for the best result. I'm going to shake up life this year because I am finally ready to do it.
I'll miss the past. I'll miss the memories. I'll miss the people. But it's time for something new. It's time to get over it, and stop blaming others for my unhappiness.
(I realize that my post are starting to get a little cheesy or cliché, but I have a need to express it. I always feel better when I do.)
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Reasons
In one of my classes the other day, my teacher gave us a copy of an article why many students were unsuccessful in college.
Most of the time it's lack of self confidence, uncertainties, lack of motivation, etc. It's never usually because the person is unable to comprehend the subjects taught in school.
It got me thinking... why am I still so behind in school? A lot of the time I do lack the confidence and attitude to make sure I am heading in the right direction. I am the most uncommitted person on the planet. Making a decision is extremely hard for me. Making a decision that will effect the rest of my life is almost impossible for me. I always fear that I am making the wrong decision which then gives me anxiety.
Oh, I know I'm a complicated person. I know that sometimes I am not always rational. I just want to find a way to make myself commit to something without freaking out that it will fail on me.
The first step of that is believing that I will accomplish my dreams and goals... no matter how long it takes me.
Most of the time it's lack of self confidence, uncertainties, lack of motivation, etc. It's never usually because the person is unable to comprehend the subjects taught in school.
It got me thinking... why am I still so behind in school? A lot of the time I do lack the confidence and attitude to make sure I am heading in the right direction. I am the most uncommitted person on the planet. Making a decision is extremely hard for me. Making a decision that will effect the rest of my life is almost impossible for me. I always fear that I am making the wrong decision which then gives me anxiety.
Oh, I know I'm a complicated person. I know that sometimes I am not always rational. I just want to find a way to make myself commit to something without freaking out that it will fail on me.
The first step of that is believing that I will accomplish my dreams and goals... no matter how long it takes me.
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Little Bits of OCD
I am in a lot of ways not an organized person. My room is always cluttered, my hair is always messy, and I am full of imperfections.
I do have things that drive me a little crazy, and some things have to be done a certain way or it may drive me a little insane.
For example:
1. Whenever I scoop ice cream out of a carton, the top of the ice cream has to be leveled off. There can be no giant hole in the middle of the carton. The thought of that makes me cringe. What is even worst is when I see the ice cream start to melt. You may notice that I eat my ice cream really fast to prevent it from becoming a puddle.
2. My hair falls all over the place. You will generally find me picking my hair off my clothes, bed, floor, etc to throw it away. I can't stand seeing my hair all over the place. I have to constantly sweep my bathroom floor after I brush my hair.
3. Most of you know that I have to wash my feet before I crawl into bed.
4. I have "outside" clothes that wear when I am... well... outside that I remove once I am home. I am always in my pajamas at home. I cannot imagine laying on my bed with my outside clothes. That would be CRAZY.
I am pretty sure there are more weird habits that I have, but I want all of you to still like me, so I'll keep them to myself. :)
I do have things that drive me a little crazy, and some things have to be done a certain way or it may drive me a little insane.
For example:
1. Whenever I scoop ice cream out of a carton, the top of the ice cream has to be leveled off. There can be no giant hole in the middle of the carton. The thought of that makes me cringe. What is even worst is when I see the ice cream start to melt. You may notice that I eat my ice cream really fast to prevent it from becoming a puddle.
2. My hair falls all over the place. You will generally find me picking my hair off my clothes, bed, floor, etc to throw it away. I can't stand seeing my hair all over the place. I have to constantly sweep my bathroom floor after I brush my hair.
3. Most of you know that I have to wash my feet before I crawl into bed.
4. I have "outside" clothes that wear when I am... well... outside that I remove once I am home. I am always in my pajamas at home. I cannot imagine laying on my bed with my outside clothes. That would be CRAZY.
I am pretty sure there are more weird habits that I have, but I want all of you to still like me, so I'll keep them to myself. :)
Saturday, January 22, 2011
A New Year
I feel like I'm still in 2010 as I never really got to celebrate the new year here at home. In a way, I feel like I missed out on the holidays. I left before Christmas, and came back still in the Christmas mode. It's like I never got Christmas out of my system.
I find myself singing Christmas carols. Is it so wrong to sing Christmas music in the middle of January? I hope not! Although I am not over the holidays, I am well aware that it's a new year.
I had a terrible year last year (although there were some good moments), and I am definitely ready for a change, a new year! I am really for good things to happen, and I only hope that nothing terrible happens to me this year.
The only thing about starting a new year is that I tend to start having a life crisis. I start to question the place where I am in life, and if I am going the right direction. It always gets a little crazy a few months before my birthday because that's when I start to feel old and unaccomplished.
I'm going to try really hard not to freak out this year as I will be turning a quarter of a century. 25 already? Where has all the time gone?
But being 25 will be great. I'll finally be able to rent a car for cheap! At least there are things to still look forward to. I'll be able to travel more now that I'll be able to rent a vehicle. :)
I find myself singing Christmas carols. Is it so wrong to sing Christmas music in the middle of January? I hope not! Although I am not over the holidays, I am well aware that it's a new year.
I had a terrible year last year (although there were some good moments), and I am definitely ready for a change, a new year! I am really for good things to happen, and I only hope that nothing terrible happens to me this year.
The only thing about starting a new year is that I tend to start having a life crisis. I start to question the place where I am in life, and if I am going the right direction. It always gets a little crazy a few months before my birthday because that's when I start to feel old and unaccomplished.
I'm going to try really hard not to freak out this year as I will be turning a quarter of a century. 25 already? Where has all the time gone?
But being 25 will be great. I'll finally be able to rent a car for cheap! At least there are things to still look forward to. I'll be able to travel more now that I'll be able to rent a vehicle. :)
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
One More Week
I have another week before I have to go back to school, and I am trying to live it up as much as I can.
It actually hasn't been that eventful for me because I have been sick, and I am still trying to fully recover. I hate when I end up being sick for weeks.
I actually spent a lot of time catching up on movies because I have spent so much time vegging out, and everyone I know is always willing to watch a movie with me. After coming back from Canada, I had an urge to watch a ton of movies, so I did.
I really would like to go to museums or maybe even do a little ice skating. It has been so warm lately that I actually want to do some winter activities. Actually, I just want to do anything.
So let the fun times begin!
It actually hasn't been that eventful for me because I have been sick, and I am still trying to fully recover. I hate when I end up being sick for weeks.
I actually spent a lot of time catching up on movies because I have spent so much time vegging out, and everyone I know is always willing to watch a movie with me. After coming back from Canada, I had an urge to watch a ton of movies, so I did.
I really would like to go to museums or maybe even do a little ice skating. It has been so warm lately that I actually want to do some winter activities. Actually, I just want to do anything.
So let the fun times begin!
Monday, January 17, 2011
Update
After I came back from Canada, I spent an entire two weeks being extremely sick. I caught the flu, and was slightly crazy during that time. I would stay in bed, and not function for days. I still cough regularly, and am often seen blowing my nose. I can't believe how hard it has kicked my butt.
I am much healthier now. Just in time for school since it's starting next week. Oh boy, just my luck.
I have also spent the last two weeks napping on my bed, watching A LOT of Sonny with a Chance (I LOVE that show. Why on earth is she in rehab?! She needs to get better to make more episodes.), and eating soup. I can't really complain because it was really nice to be a vegetable after working so hard in Canada. (Remind me that I never want to move... especially in cold weather.)
I have been having so much fun that my parents are threatening to send me to Canada indefinitely. I really don't want that to happen, so I really need to get busy about finding a more stable job and finishing school.
Yes, it's time to do something productive. I think I'm going to make that my new year's resolution. :)
I am much healthier now. Just in time for school since it's starting next week. Oh boy, just my luck.
I have also spent the last two weeks napping on my bed, watching A LOT of Sonny with a Chance (I LOVE that show. Why on earth is she in rehab?! She needs to get better to make more episodes.), and eating soup. I can't really complain because it was really nice to be a vegetable after working so hard in Canada. (Remind me that I never want to move... especially in cold weather.)
I have been having so much fun that my parents are threatening to send me to Canada indefinitely. I really don't want that to happen, so I really need to get busy about finding a more stable job and finishing school.
Yes, it's time to do something productive. I think I'm going to make that my new year's resolution. :)
Thursday, January 6, 2011
I'm Back!
I can't believe I've been gone for that long. It feels like I have missed everything, and that I am just trying to play catch up. I seriously have lost touched with civilization for the three weeks I was gone. It's so nice to be able to just sleep on my own bed. :)
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