Bicycling Hang

I want to start a new hobby. I don't do very much, so it would nice if I actually started doing something fun. Even if it's just for my sanity. 

Riding a bike would be a nice and refreshing thing to do. I'd be pedaling to the park or maybe riding to the store to do some errands.

The only problem is that I've been looking for cheap bikes on craigslist, and it seems that bicycles may be a bit more pricey than I had anticipated. 

I'm now on a mission to find a cheap bike, but I don't know where to look. I think I may have to wait to start this new hobby until I find a cheap bike because I am pretty broke. (I have other things to save for... like getting a motorcycle licence.)

I hope one that I can afford will turn up soon. I have an itch to go on a bike ride. :)

Woe is Hang

Oh boy, I studied my butt off for my Geology class, and I BARELY got an A. The only reason why I even got an A was because it was on a curve. 

That distresses me. I know I sound completely crazy and anal, but I can't help it. I studied so hard, and I barely even got the grade I wanted.

That only means I have to study more. I'm going to dedicate more time to being a good student. I just don't know what more I can do.

I'm pretty disappointed. I think I will crawl into my bed, and take a nice long nap. Sleep sounds good.

On a happier note, I am now volunteering at the Discovery Science Center. I'm going to be teaching little children about Earth Science. How exciting is that? I get to teach adorable little children about something I love. Why didn't I think of this earlier?!

I have been bored with myself for the last few weeks. I think that may have contributed a lot to my depression. Bored Hang equals unhappy Hang. 

Frances then suggested I volunteer somewhere. I thought the Discovery Science Center would be a neat place to volunteer, so I applied and went through an interview.

My interviewer was really sweet, and suggested I teach children about Earth Science. She thought it would be right up my ally, and it is. Teaching kids about geysers? Sounds like a good time. 

So now I'm really excited to start something new, and work at such a cool place. I got giddy over their earthquake stimulator, their bed of nails, and their interactive dinosaur!  That place was made for me, and I can hardly contain my excitement. :)

I just can't believe I never thought to do it earlier. 

Hang Gets to Watch The Big Bang Theory

You are all probably confused. You already know I watch The Big Bang Theory on a weekly basis. Why on earth would I be telling you that I'm watching TV?

That's because I finally got a ticket to see the show LIVE! 

Can you hear my shrill of happiness? I'm absolutely delighted that I get to go to a live taping of one of my favorite shows.

I realize that I have to wait a month before I get to go, but I'm already excited. 

Today is turning out to be a wonderful day. Well... maybe not the part where I have to take a test, but you catch my drift. :)

How Frances Influences Hang

Frances is my best friend. She's gives me amazing feedback, and usually knows what to say to me. She makes me want more from life. She reminds me that I don't want to settle, and that I should follow my dreams. I also think some of her ideas are awesome.

She decided that she wanted to start enjoying beer. She wanted to enjoy beer like any other guy, and decided that it would just take some getting use to. I happily agreed that I didn't want to be socially awkward, and wanted to be "cool". (If you know me, you know that I'm a one shot wonder. I can't physically handle alcohol, and am a sick drunk. As in puking.)

She bought beer, researched how they were made, and poured me glass like a good bartender.

I took a sip, and decided that my new mission to be cooler was a failure. I just can't ever imagine drinking it like it's water, so I decided that it was a lost cause.

For now I think she'll have to do this mission on her own. Maybe I'll try getting used to wine instead because beer is something I can't imagine getting used to.

We also went to the mall earlier, and found purses we wanted on sale. I tried to talk myself out of buying it, but Frances was buying one. I just wasn't strong enough to resist when she was agreeing with me how cute it was. 

She has a lot of influence on me as it may seem. 

On another note, pet stores are evil. Frances and I went to the pet store, and fell in love with this beautiful St. Bernard. I've always wanted one, and when I saw her through the glass, I knew I had to have one.

She is the most mellow dog I've ever met. I then started imagining all the lazy afternoons we could watch TV together. How we could take walks to the park. She was the most perfect dog, and I wanted her.

I didn't care that she would one day be bigger than me. I didn't mind that she may weigh 140 pounds one day or that she would be eating a lot. I was in love, and my love could not be reasoned.

But I knew I didn't have $1,700. I knew she'd find an amazing home. I knew that someone would want her. I knew she wasn't for me. 

Someday though, I'm going to have a St. Bernard, and we'll be happy and in love.

Rocks and Hang

I've been trying to study for my Geology test for awhile now. I reviewed the information so much that seeing my own handwriting make me feel oozy now.

How much are you suppose to study anyway? Until you can't see straight? Until you dream about rocks? Because that's already happening to me.

I have lots of dreams where I am hiking and identifying rocks and minerals. In my dreams, I carry a hardness kit, and would be scratching the minerals I found. That may sound pretty nerdy, but it's my dream.

I want to travel the world figuring out why some geological features were created. I want to be able to see with my own eyes that Iceland is splitting apart. I want to be the type of person that can identify the landscape I see.

I think that's why I study so hard, and make myself insane. I just wish I had the same drive for everything else I did.

Hang is Going to Dance Under the Sun

Or maybe I'm just going to go to the Sundance Film Festival. 

Frances and I have decided that we wanted to join one of my dear friend to Park City, Utah during Sundance. We haven't gone on a trip for awhile, and it's about time we go somewhere exciting.

It's going to be in January, so it'll be the perfect weather to drink hot cocoa, play in the snow, and take silly pictures. I'm so excited, I'm already counting down the days.

Our plane tickets are already booked, and my bags are already partially packed. I'm just kidding about the last part. Or maybe I am not.

I'm saving every penny I have, and am thrilled to be going.

I kind of wished I could spend time in Salt Lake City though. There's lot of Geological features, and I'm nerdy enough to want to see it. :)

Yay for future adventures!

Hang's Crush on her Geology Teacher

I love my Geology professor. (No, I don't mean a real crush. Just a, "I think you're the most amazing person" crush.) She's the sweetest, most interesting professor that I have ever met. That's saying a lot because a lot of professors have inspired me to do many things.

Today after my class, my professor gave me an elephant figurine made with soapstone (a type of limestone) from India. I was so touched that she would even think or give me something so adorable. I'm just so flattered that she even remembers the conversation I had with her regarding how adorable elephants are.

I just want to hug her sometimes because she's so adorable, but I don't want her to think I am crazy.

As the weeks goes by, I'm trying to work up the courage to talk to her about my plans, and ask her for advice. I'm generally a shy person, so it is pretty nerve racking for me. I'm working on it though.

I'll talk to her soon, and probably swoon. Hahaha. She's just who I want to be like, and she totally made my life when she gave me a present. :)

What Hang Loves/Hates About the Seasons

I can't believe that tomorrow will be the official start of autumn. Where has the time gone? Things are moving much faster than I can handle. I always feel like I'm a step behind, and that I can't catch up with time.

Fall means that the heat waves will soon come to an end, and I can enjoy the outdoors again. I've always loved watching the leaves change colors, and it's always exciting to finally get to drink apple cider again.

I'm also in love with scarves. If I get to pull them out of my closet again, I'm a happy girl. Oh, I can't forget the coats. I love coats with a passion.

I don't really care for winter because it gets so cold. My house usually gets so cold that using two blankets to sleep still leaves me with frost bite. I'm not being dramatic at all. It's the truth. It hurts me that we don't have heater, and it hurts me to breathe in the winter.

Don't even get me started on how I sick I get in the winter. I usually spend about 93% of the winter blowing my nose, and coughing. I become a horrible mess, and then people don't want to approach me because I look crazy. (I am already dreading this. SIGH.)

I do have things to look forward to though. The holidays are around the corner which means Disneyland and the malls will soon be decorated, and I can finally listen to Christmas music without someone judging me.

I guess it wouldn't really be the holidays if I wasn't freezing my butt off. Besides, summer will be back before I know it.

Oh dear, the year is about to end, but that means new adventures for next year. How exciting! :)

Greek Food and Hang

I've been on a mission to try new and exciting food lately. I want to be more cultured, and a little bit more adventurous. I find that I get excited over little things like eating something delicious at a new places. I'm definitely low maintenance, and easily amused.

I must declare love to www.yelp.com. It's where I go to find new restaurants for my adventures. They make it so easy to find the most specific restaurants. Want middle eastern food? Just put it in the search box, and voila, there is it!

A friend and I tried Christakis Greek Cuisine. It is an adorable little restaurant with a pretty nice ambiance, and it was nice to sit on their patio. I was in love with the cuteness of it all. I think it had to do with the water fountain.

We started off with the spanakopita (spinach, feta cheese, and fillo dough), and it was pretty tasty. My friend later told me it is available at Costco in the frozen aisle (My heart did a little dance when she told me that). I think I automatically like anything when it is made with dough.

Greek salad was then served to us. I didn't really care for it because it was extremely peppery. I would of ordered their soup, but it had meat in it. 

My main entree was superb. I've always had a thing for falafel, and when I took my first bite, I was in heaven. There was just the right amount of crunch in it. I've never really cared for mushy or soft falafel, and theirs were the perfect texture. It was served with green beans, rice, and potato. I really enjoyed my meal, and as I was eating it, I was thinking about how I wanted to come there again next week.

But my happiness was dampened because of their terrible service. At first I didn't mind waiting for what felt like 30 minutes for my meal, but I was really upset when my friend and I sat there for about 15 minutes waiting for our check. They gave us a to-go box, and picked up our plates, but never brought the check until my friend flagged down a waiter. We even sat staring at our waiter, but she never got the hint. We felt ignored because the waiter talked to every table, but ours.

I had a fit of giggles when I saw the belly dancer. It's not that I was laughing at the belly dancer. I was laughing because she was dancing to a little 1 year old. The baby was so mesmerized by her dancing that he started clapping. It was so cute, but I couldn't help thinking what he would be like when he grew up. How is that age appropriate? Then his parents gave him money to put in the belly dancers' waist band, and I didn't know what to think. 

I really did like their food, but I can't help but be put off by their service. Maybe I'll give them another try one of these days when I have a terrible craving for falafel.

I want to try middle eastern food next. It sounds interesting. 

Happiness and Hang

Lately, I've been going through a lot of emotions, and a lot of it was and is negative. 

I find it hard these days to be optimistic or even excited about things. I feel like I've been a totally Negative Nelly, and it's hard for me to even get up in the morning.

This isn't me. I'm usually happy-go-lucky, and am always laughing. I've always been a little insecure about myself, but lately it has taken over my whole life.

I feel like I'm not good enough, smart enough, pretty enough, strong enough, funny enough, or even worthy enough to hang out with my friends.

What is driving me crazy is that fact that I don't know why I feel this way. How did this happen?I don't know where my sunny disposition has gone. Will it come back? If yes, I would please like it back now.

In the last few months, I have lost whatever confidence I had, and have became extremely confused. I feel like I don't know where my life is going, and what is going to happen. I imagine the worst, and I fear it. What am I going to do with myself?

I think it has a lot to do with the fact that I'm a planner. I like to know what is going to happen. I like making lists before I go to the grocery store, so I know exactly what to get. I plan my days, so I know what I need to do, and where I am going. I barely ever do anything without thinking about. I like to know how things will pan out, and when i don't, it drives me crazy. 

Not knowing what is going to happen to me, is making me extremely uncomfortable. I don't know what to do with myself, and that makes me feel unsure of myself. Then that stresses me out, and I become extremely frustrate. That may have to do with how I am feeling these days.

I used to think I was a mellow, and a laid back person, but now I can see that I am not. I have a need to follow the rules, come early to events, and have some sort of routine in my life. It hurts me to walk off the line, or to break any rules. I need law and order to be sane.

Maybe the problem is that I need to let loose, and learn to enjoy life one day at a time. I need to trust that my life will be ok, no matter what decision I choose. I need to believe that I am worthy of love, and that I am good enough to do things. I need to learn how to deal with my uncertainties. I need to be ok if things don't turn out they way I expect it to.

I want to be different, but it's so hard to break my habits. It's hard to try to make your happiness instead of waiting for it to come. I know I need to put matters into my own hands. I need to make my happiness a priority. I need to not be such a control freak.

Who becomes upset when they do not know where their life is going? Why would this even be a big deal? Who am I? 

I realize that I sound like a whiny cry baby, but I am not complaining about life at all. I know I am blessed, and sometimes I may forget to be grateful, but I do enjoy my life. I just feel like I'm at an unhappy stage right now. I'm basically in limbo because I don't know what's going to happen to me.

I just don't know how I'm going to do it, but I do know that I want to be happy again...

Hang's Mini Adventure in San Diego

Wednesday after my Geology Lab, I drove straight to Escondido for a fun filled adventure in San Diego with Frances.

On the drive there, I got lost about 4.2 times. Why on Earth is the freeways and streets of Escondido so dark? Why are the signs not visible? And why am I directionally challenged? 

I later spent the night, not sleeping. I have this strange habit where I cannot sleep in places that isn't my own bed. There is something about being in an unfamiliar place that makes me toss and turn at night. It's an annoying habit, but I have it nonetheless.

We decided to sleep in, and by the time we woke up, it was time for lunch. I love lunch. I love food in general, and I especially love vegetarian restaurants. I finally got my pho fix (I had a craving for like 3 months) when I had vegetarian meatball pho. The meatballs were amazing. Frances even claimed she liked them better than regular meatballs. 

The afternoon was spent at the bookstore where we spent hours reading magazines and entertaining ourselves. I realize that a lot of people wouldn't find this exciting, but the thing is... we've been doing this since we were children, and it's became a habit. I actually have a need sometimes to go to Borders, and sit around reading. It may have to do with their AC. It's always nice to escape the heat.

Indian food is the way to my heart. It fills my heart and tummy with joy and happiness. Can you guess what we had for dinner? I realize that I am pretty predictable, but it can't be helped. I got to be myself. :)

A laid back day in San Diego was just what I need. It's nice to just lie around, and wonder what your next meal is going to be. I wish I had more lazy days like these. I think I will make a point to visit San Diego more often.

Did I also mention I got a bunch of $4 shirts at Old Navy? I love a good bargain, and it seriously made my day. I can't resist cheap clothing. 

San Diego is definitely the way to my heart. <3

Hang is in SD

Yay! I'm in SD again. I find myself always looking forward to these trips. It's not that far from home, but far enough to feel like you are taking a break from home.

We have a lot of eating planned, and maybe seeing an animal or two. What more could I ever ask for?

I shall be reporting my SD trip in a later post. :)

Food is the Way to Hang's Heart

The best thing anyone can ever give me is a good meal. It's the reason for my existence, the reason why I am constantly broke, and can make my day when I'm feeling gloomy.

I've always been fascinated by different cultures, and the different food that people eat. I'm always interested in trying something new. 

I was extremely excited to finally get to try Indian food. I've always heard amazing things about it, and always had an hankering to try it.

My world changed when I took my first bite of naan and palak paneer. I love curry, and getting to trying Indian curry was such a treat. Where has it been all my life, and why have I never tried it? 

It was flavorful, delicious, and extremely delightful. It made me want to try more interesting food. I am now determined be more cultured through food. 

Next stop is Lebanese food. Although I have already tried it, I don't really remember if I liked it or not. 

This may explain why I will forever be broke. I just have a need to try new things once in awhile. That and traveling. I love that too. :)

P.S. I don't write as much because I really don't know what to say, and am busy being a good student. Who know being a good student took so much work?

Early Bird Shopping Time for Hang

I've had an urge to listen to Christmas music since July. It's too soon to be thinking about Christmas you say? It's never too soon to start planning for Christmas in my book.

I've already composed my shopping list, and am determine to start shopping from now until Christmas. Not only do I enjoy Christmas shopping, I also need to spread out my shopping, so I don't go broke all in one day.

It's so hard to shop for some people, and my head already hurts from thinking about it. I guess I am a little OCD when it comes to buying people presents. It's just that I've always hated giving late presents or giving them something that they don't really want. That's why I plan ahead. Or at least try too, but I think year will be a challenge.

I have no idea what I'm going to get anyone. That's a lie, I know what I'm going to get one person. Oh boy, that leaves about 15,000 more people to go.

Let the Christmas music begin. I'm already in the Christmas spirit! :)

Hang's Look Back

Eight years ago we all experienced something that changed history forever. We all watched the Twin Towers come crashing down, and then later watched the effects it had on the country. 

I still remember the moment I found out about the attack. I was in Zero period, and working on speech for OCAD (Orange County Academic Decathlon). I remember the moment I knew what had happened. I remember what I was thinking. I remember who I was talking to.

My heart and prayers still goes out to the families, friends, and anyone that was effected by that day.

Even though it has been awhile, I still feel like it was just yesterday, a few months ago, or even last years. It doesn't seem that long ago, but then I think about myself back then, and realize how much has change or hasn't changed.

Eight years ago...

1. I was 15. (I feel so old now.)
2. I was still in high school, and couldn't drive.
3. Frances was and is still my best friend.
4. I ate meat. (I was eating meat last year too.)
5. I didn't know what Facebook was, and had 56K internet. Remember dial up? Yeah, I like to forget it too.
6. I discovered a love for romance novels.
7. I thought N'Sync and Backstreet Boys were the greatest bands ever.
8. I thought the mall was the coolest place to hang out.
9. I watched Gilmore Girls religiously.
10. I thought I would be happily married at 24.  (Wow, what on Earth was I thinking?! I'm almost 24, and I still act like my 15 year old self.)

I wonder where I will be in another eight years...

Hang is Green with Envy

I don't get jealous that often. It actually takes a lot for me to even get incredibly jealous. 

Usually I get a bit of envious of people who travel, eat amazing food, or have fancy camera equipments. It's not a big deal though because I know that someday I'll go on a safari and pet the elephants, eat Belgium chocolate, and own a fancy Canon DSLR. At least that's what I tell myself.

But I do become extremely jealous when I hear about people finding their dreams jobs or finding a job right after they finish school.

Why can't that happen to me? I've been looking for awhile, and all I ended up with is heartbreak. 

I know it's wrong to feel jealous, but I can't help it when I spend countless hours looking for job.

Oh wells, at least now I can spend those extra hours reading, napping, or watching movies. It really does feel nice to do a lot of nothing sometimes. I just don't think I can do nothing for much longer, but I'll try to enjoy it for now.

The Piano is Kicking Hang's Butt

Yes, you heard me. I am DYING. Reading musical notes is seriously as hard as learning Latin. What the heck is with all those symbols?!

Apparently I can't multi-task. How can I listen to the metronome while trying to listen to the piece I am playing? My ears can only concentrate on one thing.

Once again, I am reminded that I wasn't meant to be a musician. I guess I should leave music to people that have actual talent.

I can't even play guitar hero on easy. It's quite sad. My 7 year old cousin can beat me in his sleep.

Instead of practicing for my piano class, I am sitting around listening to The Beatles. 

Have I ever told anyone how much I adore The Beatles? If I was living when they were popular, I would have probably one of their groupies. 

"When I'm 64" is such a sweet song. I just want someone to feel that way about me. :)

What's on Hang Mind...

1. I realize that I have terrible grammar and spelling. Sometimes I just forget to proof read. Sometimes I post in the middle of the night, and I would be sleepy. Thanks for not teasing me about it. Thanks for not judging me (or at least keeping it to yourself). Thanks for accepting me for who I am. 
2. I wish I lived in LA. They have so many vegetarian places that I want to try, and they all sound amazing. Vegetarian Japanese food? Vegetarian Thai food? Vegetarian Mexican food? SIGN ME UP! (Yelp is evil.)
3. I tried to go back to eating seafood today. My body has been a bit wacky lately, and I thought it was because I wasn't eating a balanced meal. But I couldn't do it. I couldn't eat fish, and that shocked me. I used to LOVE, LOVE, LOVE, LOVE sushi. Today, for some reason, I found it incredibly easy to resist. I just couldn't eat it.
4. I miss my long hair. I think it's because my hair is always frizzy now (I had a perm when it was longer). Either that or I want straight short hair. Me looking like a clown in the mornings is just not very attractive.
5. I'm always sleepy lately. I'm not sure why. I find myself yawning a lot. I'm extremely sleepy right now, so I think I shall go to bed. :)

Hang is Slightly OCD

I have to admit that I am slightly OCD and germophobic. It's just that I like order and cleanliness in my life. 

Here's a list of things that may be slightly OCD:

1. I have to wash my feet before I crawl into my bed. I cannot stand thought of my dirty feet on my bed.
2. I have to take a shower before I go to bed. I don't want to be gross and germy while I'm sleeping.
3. I have inside and outside clothes. I change clothing before I go out or when I come home.
4. I never wear my shoes indoor. I have house slippers for walking inside. 
5. I have to sweep my bathroom floor everyday. My hair aways falls off my head when I am brushing it. (I may also be going bald)
6. I don't like having different food touching each other. I am learning to deal with it though.
7. I always fix crooked picture frames.
8. I always check if I locked my doors 3 times.
9. I can't stand having crumbs on the floor.
10. I use paper towels to open the public restroom doors.
11. I eat my food in a certain order. I always leave the best part for last. (I eat the crust of my sandwich first because I love the center of the sandwich.) 
12. My car has to be clean 95% of the time. I will wash it every week if I have too.
13. I have to write a list before I go to the grocery store. It doesn't matter if it's only 3 things. I have to write it down.

I am only slightly OCD though because there is a lot of things that don't bother me. I don't have to arrange my pens in a certain order or arrange my clothes by color.

I just notice lately that I have some strange habits. I'm sure that I am not alone because everyone I know is slightly or very OCD. 

I'm definitely not alone in the world. :)

Yummy in Hang's Tummy

I love to eat breakfast food anytime of the day. I've always preferred breakfast to any other meals. I realize that breakfast foods are more limited than the other meals, but I tend to eat the same things all the time.

So when a friend told me she knew a great place that served breakfast all day long, I was sold. Breakfast potatoes for dinner? How could I refuse?

When we were ordering our meal. The waitress asked us if we wanted O'brien or plain potatoes. My friend then proceeded to ask the waitress why anyone would order plain potatoes. 

The waitress told us that A LOT of people hate onions. They like bell peppers, but they hate onions. They would rather eat their potatoes plain. 

My heart fell. I love onions. I eat it all the time, and it's my favorite vegetable. I don't understand how anyone can hate it. I usually add it to everything I eat (unless it's ice cream), and I always add more than the recipe calls for it.

Yes, I did write this post to declare my love for onions. It's just a misunderstood vegetable, and I don't understand how anyone can hate it. 

Onions are amazing. Give it a chance. If you have to hate something, hate peas instead. Peas are gross. 

What Hang Dreams About

I woke up in a fright today. 

I had dreamt that while I was visiting my Geology teacher during her office hours, she had told me that secretly hated Geology. She then proceeded to tell me she wished she had stuck with being a lawyer, and that I should just not even bother getting into the field.

My subconscious was telling me something. 

I know that it's my insecurities that are taking over. I am paranoid that I won't be able to do it even though I really want to. I'm afraid I'll never make it, and that stresses me completely out.

I am terrible at math, and the thought that I will have to do well in calculus freaking scares me. What's worse is that I have to take Biology, Chemistry, and Physics (EVILNESS). How will I survive? I can already see myself huddled in a ball, and crying. 

Science and math isn't really my thing. I can handle Political Science, Law, History, and even English classes. I actually did well in my paralegal classes.

Even though I know that Chemistry, Biology, and Physics isn't my thing, I LOVE Geology, Environmental Science, and Earth Science. I enjoy learning about the Earth, and love being in nature.

There's something so peaceful about being out in the open. The world stops whenever I go to a National Park, take a hike, or relax on the beach. There's just so much to see, and I want to see it all. I love nature with all my heart, and it makes me extremely happy.

I just hope I have the brain power to get there. I have to make it through the evil classes before I can ever take the classes I want. 

It's going to be on painful ride. I just hope I'll be able to do it.

It also doesn't help that today I am 23 1/2. I feel so old, and unaccomplished.

P.S. I'm sorry that my post has become a bit depressing lately. I hope you all still love me!

Impressions of Hang

I always wonder what people think of me. Strange? Hilarious (Don't I wish!)? Wacky? Weird? That Hang's the most fantastic girl that ever lived (That is a fact!)?

Only old people approach me in public. Do they feel a kindred spirit in me? Do I have an old soul, so they think I can relate to them? (I do actually enjoy talking to old people. They are the sweetest people.)

I'm not sure if I even care to know what people think of me. I do get curious though because I never know how I am doing in a social setting.

Maybe I care too much about what kind of impression I am making, but I can't help wanting people to like me. At least the people I care about.

A lot of times, I get insecure if the person I am talking does not seem interested in the conversation. Doesn't anyone understand my insane need to talk about food or places I want to go to?

I feel awkward most of the time.

I feel like in certain situations, I don't know how to fit in. But the thing is, I only feel this way when I meet new people. I know that the people who already know me understand how I am, and maybe can even relate to my awkwardness.

I just hope that I leave nice impressions of myself. I would also like you all to forget any impressions of me that have left you wondering about my sanity. Just so you know, I am perfectly normal.

Rambling Hang

I had Geology lab Wednesday. 

I instantly became frustrated when I realized that we'd have to use math to solve problems. I hate math. Me and math don't get along. Never have, and probably never will. 

I also snapped at one of my lab partners. I felt bad. Really bad.

I also confessed to my professor that I loved her, and wanted to be her. I don't know how she handled it. I hope she doesn't think I stalk her. It's just that I love and admire her so much. She's exactly who I want to be.

Then I became embarrassed. I was bright red. I can't believe I told her how much I adore her.

I feel like I am so dramatic. A bit strange too. :)

Who Gets Arm Cramps? Hang Does.

I took my first piano lesson today.

My head was spinning from trying to comprehend tempo, beats, notes, and rhythm. How on Earth does anyone play an instrument? It's so confusing that I find myself fearful of the keyboard.

After class I found that my arms were extremely sore, and my fingers were twitchy. I hold my arms and hands in an awkward position when I play. Not only that, the piano is actually hard to master. 

I really don't think music is my thing, but I'm still going to try. I still find it quite sad when little children can play better than me, but I've already accepted that sad fact.

But I'm still planning on becoming a famous composer someday. Somebody has to do it. Why not me? :)

Hang is Back in Class

Horray! I'm totally excited about my geology class, and I'm looking forward to the day I'm good enough to point out which rock is which.

Can you imagine? While you're walking down a hiking trail with me, I suddenly yell, "OOOH, LOOK! It's a basalt rock. Did you know it makes up most of the oceanic crust? Because it's high in density, it pushes the continental crust above to create mountains. We're standing on a mountain that was made by convergent plate boundaries..."

I could imagine the horror in your faces.

I think my teacher knows how much I adore her. Every time she tells me more about her life, I find myself more in love with her. She's who I want to be. Plus, I think I automatically love anyone who loves elephants.

There's another geology class where you can go camping for three days in Joshua Tree National Park. That would be so much fun to actually get to see the things I am studying. I think I'm going to sign up for it tomorrow. I love nature. I love the outdoors. I love wildlife.

Did I mention that I will be taking a piano class? Don't laugh, it might be my secret talent! I might be the next great composer, and make millions. Ok, maybe not. Haha.

I'm just trying to distract myself, and take some fun classes. :)