Hang is Currently...

1. Pretty stressed. I think all the school work is piling up, and I'm starting to feel the strain of doing everything. I have school concerts, field trips, bankruptcy projects, and photos to take. I'm so glad I don't work anymore. I seriously can't get good grades while working. I'm terrible at multitasking or focusing on more than one thing at a time. I'm running wild, and going crazy. 
2. Reading a lot of Jane Austen time travel or modern remake types of books. Seriously, Jane Austen will be the death of me. I am seriously one of those girls who can't get enough of the Victorian age. Next thing I know, I'm going to expect my own Mr. Darcy, and that is bad news. 
3. Taking too many afternoon naps. Why did I start this bad habit again? 
4. Eating cereal all the time because my house isn't vegetarian friendly. Haha. It's okay though, I actually enjoy being a vegetarian. Yay for animals. (I also just watched Hotel for Dogs. Please don't judge me. I like dogs.)

Hang's Eating Habits

I've been vegetarian for awhile now. It hasn't been long, but I decided to completely give up land animals. I'm not sure if I just want to convert to pescetarianism, so I can still eat seafood. Although I haven't touched any form of meat in awhile. I guess we'll just see how it goes. I think I will eventually crack and eat seafood.

Anyways, I just wanted to state that I'm always hungry. I don't have cravings for meat, but I have an odd urge to eat french fries all the time. Hmmm...

Seagulls Hates Hang

I went to the beach today to study with a friend. I know what you are thinking, how can you possibly study while you are at the beach? Actually, it's not impossible. I think it actually helps me study. The beach is so refreshing, and I seriously think it helps me think. It clears out my mind, and lets me concentrate on whatever I am doing. Oh, how I love the beach.

My notes flew away while I was trying to eat lunch. I went to retrieve my flying notes. When I returned to my spot, the seagulls were eating my lunch! There was literally 20 of them attacking my food for the 20 second I was away from my spot. Seagulls have been on my black list since I was a little girl. They have pooped on my face, hair, backpack, clothes, and many times on my car. After this incident I think they are seriously out to get me.

For some strange reason, I have tar all over my feet now. I can't wash it off, and I smell really bad. I hope no one is dumping crap into the beach, and if they are... SHAME on them.

Hang's Childhood Dream Jobs

When I was younger, I wanted to be everything. I wanted to be a painter, a horse trainer, and even a cashier. I imagined all these jobs would be glamorous, and that I would be wealthy and happy. I still carry those childhood dreams with me, but I realize that I need to have more realistic dreams too. Here's the order of the things I seriously wanted to be growing up:

1. A doctor- My mother told me it would be the perfect job for me. Who doesn't want loads of money while saving people? I realized when I was older that I would faint at the sight of blood.
2. A veterinarian- I wanted to save animals because I love them so much. I decided that animal blood would make me faint too.
3. An Artist- I thought it would be so much fun if I could paint and draw all day. I then discovered that I wasn't that artistic.
4. A fireman (0r fire-woman)- How cool would it be to rescue people from burning buildings, save cats from tall trees, and work with good looking guys? I found out that you have to be super strong, and you also die earlier from all the smoke you breathe in. I want to live long, so this career was out of the question.
5. A forest ranger- I wanted to be in nature. I love national parks and really feel at peace there. I couldn't do this because it would require me to move into a forest. My family relies on my too much for me to ever do that.
6. An archaeologist- I love history, I love digging, I love traveling... what more could I want? I realized that I would never be home though, and this career is so competitive. I wouldn't stand a chance.
7. A paleontologist- I love dinosaurs. What more can I say? Would I be successful at research? Probably not.
8. A nurse- I was convince that I could be a nurse while volunteering at a hospital. Later changed my mind when I realized that I didn't have a science-y mind.
9. A zoologist- I would of loved to work with elephants. I was trying to be realistic though. There is no elephants here, and I can't move from my family.
10. A travel documentary person- I want to be do shows on traveling, and travel the whole wide world. I still really want this job, but I have to be realistic about ever getting that kind of a job. Everyone wants that kind of job...
11. A paralegal- I love the law, and wanted to work in it without being a lawyer. I actually stuck to this, and will be graduating soon. YAY!
12. A photographer- I am taking a class in photography, and I am definitely in love with it. This is what I really wish to be if I could be anything. It makes me happy. I just don't know enough to do it professionally. Oh wells, I can dream, and still do it as a hobby. I would of loved to work for National Geographic. I know, I dream big.
13. A geologist- I'm taking a class right now on earth science, and the subject makes my heart sing. I loooooove rocks and learning about the earth. I was never good at bio or chem, but I love earth science.

I wish I could be a traveling photographer right now. I wish I could do it, but I chose paralegal, and am sticking to it. I would never get anything done if I let myself change my mind all the time. I don't mind being a paralegal, but I really want to travel the world. It's something I've always wanted to do... I guess I'll be taking lots of vacations.

Hang HATES earthquakes

Did you feel the little earthquake today? It was about M4. It was like a baby earthquake. Did you know we have about 30 tiny little earthquake a day in California? We just don't feel it.

I'm always in bed when an earthquake occurs. Seriously. I don't nap all that often, but earthquakes usually occur when I am lying on my bed. 

The ironic thing is that we were learning about earthquakes in my earth science class for the past week. My teacher has drilled it into us that a M7-8 earthquake will be happening sometime in our lifetime. The earth will move up, down, and sideways of about 6 feet. It will also probably last about two minutes. The thought seriously keeps me up at night. I don't want to get buried or swallowed by the earth.

Why are we going to have such a big earthquake? It's because we are near a bunch of big faults like the San Andreas fault. (There are more reasons, but I don't want to give you the whole lecture on earthquakes. haha.) The last big earthquake in southern California was over 100+ years ago, and we are long overdue for another one. I also live by the Santa Ana river, so my house may sink due to liquefaction. Oh boy.

When you look at the damages that occur during the Northridge or the Kobe earthquake, you can see how bad the next big one is going to be. I mean look at the one that just occurred in Italy. I'm seriously fearful of the next giant earthquake, but I think I am much more prepared for it now that I know what to expect. 

P.S. I wish I was a geologist. If only I could turn back time... (Actually, I wish I was a lot of things. I will post about that in the future.)

Hang's Goodbye to Shanda

Someone I knew from high school has now gone to a better place. It's weird when someone you know has past away. All my memories of her are now coming back to me. Even small memories that I didn't think were important are triggered when I see something that may remind me of her. I look at a Jane Austen book, and think of the time we did that Victorian age project together. I see a picture of Mickey Mouse, and think of the time we went to Disneyland together. I have urges to go back and look at our prom pictures. I constantly remember the things she told me in her e-mails/messages. I remember the times she would come up to me when while I was working (at SAC), and greet me. I remember so many little things. Things that I thought I had forgotten.

I wish I could of been the friend she needed. I wish I could have been there to comfort her. I wish she was still here.

But I know she's in a better place now. I know I will always remember her beautiful spirit.

Shanda, I will miss you. I hope you are at peace now. I hope you are as happy as you deserve to be. When I think of you, I will think about all the beautiful things that you were...

Jazz and Hang

I hated my jazz class when it first started. I couldn't hear the instruments or the styles of the artist. Sometimes I think I am completely tone deaf. I was just doing whatever to get by in the class. I was struggling and despising the class.

Lately, I've fallen for the music. I find myself humming it, and actually enjoying the music. I am fond of bebop because the music is so random and unpredictable. You can't dance to it, and it doesn't really make any sense. I think I like it so much because it can be really awkward. I'm a fan of awkward. 

I think it also helps that I'm getting a good grade in that class. I'm finally understanding how jazz music works. It only makes me enjoy jazz a little bit more. 

P.S. I want to be an awesome piano player. I can dream...

Hang Wonders

What would it be like if I didn't have taste buds? Would I bother with eating? Would eating become a chore? Would I be more obsessed with textures? Would I be super thin because I wouldn't eat anything bad? Would I still be happy if I didn't crave anything? Would I rather be thin with no taste buds or chubbier with tons of cravings? 

I know what you are thinking (Crazy much?), but I sometimes think about these kinds of things when I am in class.

Pie is the Way to Hang's Heart

I love pie. Peach pie, apple pie, chocolate pie, meat pies, etc.

I am especially fond of the turkey pot pie I made the other night. Yummy. The amazing thing about pie is that it's so easy to make. Well, the crust can be difficult, but other than that... as easy as mac 'n' cheese.

I just thought you all needed to know my adoration for pie.

P.S. It's my brother's 22nd birthday today. We are definitely getting older way too fast. SIGH.

Hang's Support System

For the longest time, my support system was from a not so wonderful boyfriend. The longer I was in that relationship, the lower my self esteem got. I started to feel like I wasn't good enough, pretty enough, smart enough, and I started to see myself in a really negative light. I still suffer from that today. In a lot of way, I lack confidence. I started to become very pessimistic about love. I still am.

I hide behind books and movies for romance. I live vicariously through my friends. I sigh over wedding magazines. I never stop to think that I deserve that kind of happiness. I'm not saying I need someone to feel happy. I'm not saying that at all. I am pretty happy being alone because I'm sort of an introvert. I'm awkward in large groups, and always felt more comfortable in a smaller group. I'm perfectly happy with my own company.

After my heartbreak, I realized who my friends (I know this sounds really cheesy and cliche) were. Some of my friends didn't know what to say around me, so the issue was swept under the rug. Some of my friends just wanted to know what happened, and cared less about how I was feeling. 

I do have a lot of good friends. I know that they would be there to talk if I ever needed it.

Surprisingly, I became closer to my brother. He doesn't sugar coat things for me, and makes sure I'm being realistic. He would tell me to move on, and give things a chance. It's nice to have someone there to always support you (even though he would never say it straight out). 

My biggest support system is from my BFF. She's always a phone call away. She's always there to lend me an ear. She's around to encourage my crazy dreams. She's always there to tell me great things will happen. She's the real reason why I started to laugh again. She helped me learn to hope again. To be open to the idea that maybe someday... I will be married with 3 children on a ranch. :)

The Name is Hang

My bankruptcy class started last night (SIGH, I hate night classes). While I was waiting for my name to be called off the roll sheet, I heard my name with a different last name. Was it possible? Have I finally met someone (that wasn't family) with the same name? Was I destined to meet another Hang?

Sadly, she was a no show and was dropped from the class. I guess I'll have to meet a girl named Hang another time. Even though I didn't get to meet Hang, it got me wondering how many Hangs there were out there.

So I did what most normal people would do, I googled it. Oh boy, there is a lot of Hangs and they even had the same last name. I never was convinced that my name was so uncommon that there wouldn't be another Hang (insert my last name here). 

But there are at least a hundred girls with my first and last name. One of them is a lawyer, (I should ask if she's hiring. Wouldn't it be hilarious if the lawyer and paralegal had the same name? ok, maybe not.) another was Australian, and we are all scattered around the world. How interesting is that? I got a headache when I tried to facebook all the Hangs. 

Apparently, I have a pretty common name...

P.S. Hang means moon in vietnamese.

Hang is No Van Gogh

Note: Frances painted the island with the blue footed boobies, and I drew those weird looking animals. Long and the kids painted the rest.

Whenever I see pretty landscapes or something interesting, I always wished I could draw it or paint it. I've always wished I could paint beautiful things, and give it to people as presents. My favorite presents are the ones that people paint or make for me. As I grow older, I realize that those dreams will always go unfulfilled. I can only draw stick figures and they are usually very childish. 

Frances on the other hand can draw, paint, and sketch really well. I've always envied her artistic abilities. She's so crafty that I've always wanted to be her. I want to be able to translate what I see onto paper. 

I think that's why I love photography. It doesn't require you to be able to draw. The goal is to capture the beauty onto print. Photography lets me be "artistic" without having the ability to draw. I can't imagine a hobby that I would love more.

Photography just knows how to make my heart sing. It's what I live for (among other things). I just need a DSLR camera. That way I could take beautiful pictures all the time...

How Hang Dresses

Note: This was not planned. We didn't mean to look like each other.

I'm really casual when it comes to clothing. I love jeans, t-shirts, flip-flops, and colored socks. That's all good and well until I decided to pick a career that requires me to dress business-y. That required me to do a bit of shopping since I never really owned anything that business-y.

Now I have to fill my closet full of sweaters, blouses, work pants, and heels. What on earth? I can't even walk in 1 inch heels. This has become a problem for me. I spend a lot of my time looking for comfortable shoes, and I still haven't found them. Actually, I spend a lot of time looking for clothes on sale. It's what I do for fun these days.

I actually really like business clothing. I'm pretty conservative when it comes to my clothes, so I didn't mind the switch from super casual to professional clothing. But why is it so EXPENSIVE? I feel like I'm being robbed when I have to buy business clothing. I could feed three starving children in Africa for a year for the price of a pair of work pants. Why do you have to iron work clothes? Why can't they stay straight like t-shirts? Why are they so fitting? I would like to be able to breathe when I am at work. What is up with all that? Work clothes are so much trouble, and they make me look mature (nice way of saying... OLD).

As much as work clothes confuse me, I think it's going to make dressing myself much easier. I never had an eye for fashion, and this will help me be more fashionable. I wouldn't have a choice but to wear work clothes, and I think most work clothes are pretty cute. That would mean, I would always look cute, right? Just agree and say yes... it'll help my self esteem.

P.S. Frances and I sometimes dress alike on accident. We can also read each other's mind. It's a bit freaky.

P.P.S. I'm still really sick. Does anyone know how to get me un-sick?

Hang Thinks Hannah Montana (the Movie) is Awesome

We decided to watch a movie Saturday night. We figured it would be super packed since it was the weekend, and assumed everyone would want to watch Hannah Montana. (Because honestly, who doesn't want to see it? Don't lie, you do too.) No one was there at first. We were thrilled to have the theater to ourselves. That's why we took pictures. We were pleasantly surprised. Where's the full house? I know there's lots of Hannah Montana fans out there. 

Later on there was about 5 people that came into the theater. One of them was a guy, and he was there by himself. haha. 

The movie was AWESOME. I think the real reason why I really enjoyed it was because she got to live on a ranch/farm and dates a cowboy. That's totally the life that I've ALWAYS wanted. I've been telling Frances that I wanted to marry a cowboy since I was like 13. SIGH. Hannah Montana always gets what she wants. AND she can dance. AND she's living my dream.

Am I childish for liking the movie? Maybe, but I am easily amused. 

Hang is Sick AGAIN

Oh, I was going to write an interesting blog, but my computer won't upload my pictures, and I am definitely not feeling well. I will write an interesting blog soon when I feel better. Blah... I feel like poo.

10 True Facts about Frances

1. I can't wait to see Blue footed Boobies and dance with them and go to Africa and play with the hippos

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Post started on 3/30/09 by Frances, and updated on 4/11/09 by Hang.

I noticed that Frances never finished this post, so I think I will finish it for her...

2. She loves food, and they way to her heart is to feed her good food.

3. She LOVES traveling, and can't stay in one place for long.

4. She's a very talented artist. She's actually very good at drawing and painting.

5. She wants to name her first daughter, Emma. So does two other people (including me).

6. She can't eat really spicy food or drink ice water without a straw.

7. She loves to go to Trader Joe's or Henry's for fun (Target and Costco too).

8. She wants to perm her hair... like tomorrow.

9. She can sleep a lot, and is generally a night person.

10. She loves Hang, and thinks Hang's the prettiest girl on the planet.

Hang's in San Diego

What do you eat during lent season in San Diego? Sushi Deli of course. Can't decide what you want to eat? Order them all of course. Is 8 rolls too much for 4 people? Of course not.

What do you do when you see a puppet? Play with it of course.

What do you take pictures of while in San Diego? Practice wedding pictures of course. Or take these take sad pictures of Kyle (thanks to Frances).

Or just take cute pictures of cute people like this:
Do I like San Diego? How could I not?

Hang is Away

... to hang out with Frances. 

Oh boy, I get to hang out with in San Diego today. I'm definitely going to party like a rock star (if rock stars eat sushi and take pictures that is), and probably talk until I lose my voice.

Yay for train rides to San Diego. Off I go!

Hang's Many Jobs

I started working when I turned 16. I was convinced that I would earn lots of money and be able to afford all the things I wanted. I didn't really want many things, but I wanted the luxury of buying whatever I wanted. I have worked at (in order):

1. A theme park in Buena Park
2. A movie theater
3. The happiest place on earth
4. A coffee shop
5. A clothing shop
6. A seafood restaurant
7. After school science program for little cuties (This was my favorite job. EVER.)
8. A call center
9. An office job (Which I actually thought was most beneficial to me.)

I have learned a lot from working, and there has been good times. There was a lot of BAD times, but I've grown up a lot. There is so much I've learned from all my jobs. 

I don't work now so I can concentrate fully on school (It's the only way I can get straight A's.), and I really enjoy having time to myself. I'm so glad that I am able to stay home and study whenever I need too. 

I'm actually looking forward to when I start my career. Hopefully I'll be able to start my career this summer. Yay!

Hang's Ode to Cupcakes

Red velvet is my true love. I wish I could quit you.

Chocolate is good too. Oh, so good.

Vanilla is classic. What is there not to love?

See how happy I am? It's because I'm in love.

Hang's Finished Product

Note: You can't really see the yellow wall because my camera isn't cool. Times like this, I wished I had a DSLR camera. SIGH.

This is my SECOND attempt at writing this post. The blog monster ate my first attempt, and now I'm distressed. It took me a long time, and I have forgotten half the things I written about. Blah...

Why did everyone is my family decided to tell me they hate the color yellow after I painted my whole room yellow? My family never ceases to amaze me. They couldn't tell me this before I bought my paint and painted my whole room yellow? I will never understand them. Sometimes I wonder if I was adopted, but then I do something OCD and realize I fit right in.

As I was cleaning out my room, I realized that no matter how I organized my room, it still looked messy. I have so many things that it makes my room look cluttered. Why don't I get rid of half my stuff? It's because it HURTS me. I grow an attachment to most of my belongings and it pains me whenever I have to get rid of it. I'm also pretty obsessive, so I have a lot of collections (I'll share them with you in another post), and it would literally destroy me to get rid of them. I can't help it if I'm neurotic. Don't judge me, I gave up a lot of stuff last month. There's hope for me yet. I still have a long way to go though. I'm working on that. 

Before I repainted my walls, I had lots of stuff on my walls. I had pictures, poster, postcards, drawings, and momentos littered all over my walls. There was so many things that you couldn't even see the color of my walls. I've always been a visual person, so I liked seeing pictures. Now my walls are so BARE, so plain, and so... yellow. I want something on my new yellow walls. Now, I don't want to clutter my wall again because it took me a WHOLE day to take everything off. That is an experience I don't mind never having again. I'm thinking maybe some maps (world maps, the map of the U.S.). I really love traveling, so maybe the maps will help me look forward to the future. Yay for future trips. What do you guys think?

For now my room is cluttered, yellow, and has bare walls. I'm ok with that. At least for now.

P.S. I wish I did another color now. My family told me I should of painted my walls a pale green. Like avocado (mmm... avocados) green. I'm still pondering why they didn't tell me this before...

Hang's Daunting Project

I don't know where I got the brilliant plan to repaint my room, but now it's kicking me in the butt. Who knew taking everything out of my room (by myself), cleaning it, and repainting (unsuccessfully if I might add) would be so exhausting? This is not meant to be a solo project.

I want to go to the corner of my room and cry. I start to sob when I remember all the things that I have to move back into my room after I am done painting. I'll try really hard not to let my tears mix with the paint.

As daunting as the task is, I am finding myself very fond of the new color on my walls. I think yellow is exactly what I need to cheer me right up. I had dark blue and pink before, and I think I needed a change. A change of scenery is always a good thing.

I love mellow yellow. It reminds me of flowers, sunrises/sunsets, fruits, and happy faces. I hope it translate onto my walls though. 

I should get back to work, but I think I earned a nap. ok, I'm going back to work. After lunch that is.

Hang is Thrilled to have ONE Follower

I'm so excited to have someone I don't know actually enjoy reading our daily gibberish. We're on someone's blogroll now! If that's not exciting I don't know what is. I think I'm going to live on this high for awhile.

Thanks Caroline for dropping by, and leaving me such a sweet comment. :)

Hang is Basically Blind

How depressing. How heartbreaking. How did I get this way? Too much reading in dim light? Too much reading for a long period of time? Too much computer time? Too much TV time? No wonder many people back in the day didn't need glasses...

I had to get a new pair of glasses because my old ones were... well... old and not working so well anymore. 

I have been wearing oval shaped glasses forever. My face has always looked more appropriate with glasses that are oval shaped. Everything else on me looks kind of strange. 

When I went to Costco to buy a new pair, all they had were these rectangular shaped glasses. WHAT?! I can't wear those. It makes me look like an alien. I went to LensCrafter and all they had were rectangular shaped glasses. SIGH. I need oval ones, not rectangular ones! I do realize that the rectangular shaped glasses are in right now, but... but...b-but... I need the other ones. They also had round glasses that were even worse. It made me look like John Lennon or Benjamin Franklin. Haha.

I was left with no choice but to go for the most oval rectangular shaped glasses I could find, and I like them ok. It doesn't distress me to wear them, so I guess all is good in Hangland. 

Hang's Favorite Necklace

Can you see why I adore this necklace? It has everything that I love, and it's handmade by the people I love best.

I seriously can't get over how cute the charms are. I especially love the 'H'. It's so cute, and I'm seriously impressed that the necklace is handmade. I only wish I could make cool jewelry.

I'm seriously touched that you guys (Frances and Anh) would make something so beautiful and thoughtful for me. I love it so much, and I'm going to be wearing it all the time. Thanks guys. It's one of the most fabulous gift I ever received.

P.S. I loooooooove the earrings and sweater too. They are exactly what I wanted!

Hang is Officially on Spring Break

Yay! Finally free to sleep in, stay up late, and read books that aren't text books. Horray! I'm so excited to be able to have a week to myself. I'm going to be doing a lot of nothing. 

First order of business... Read a new romance novel. :)

Hang's 2002 Life List

I've always been a fan of lists. I love to list the things I currently love in my journal, make grocery lists for my weekly Costco visits or make a list of predictions that I think will occur in the future. I'm not sure why I do it. I guess it keeps me amused, and that's what it is all about... my entertainment.

I made a list many years ago (8-9-2002 to be exact) to do a bunch of things in my life. Looking at the list today- I wonder what the heck I was thinking, and how am I going to finish this list? Oh, to be young and foolish again. Man, that was almost 7 years ago...

I now present you with my 2002 life list. Anything in italics means I've done it.  (Note: I have changed how I worded some things on my list.)

1. Travel to a real foreign place. (Egypt, Morocco, Saudi Arabia, Greece, Spain, etc.)
2. Go do something EXTREME. (bungee jump, ski, surf, rock climb, etc.) 
3. Scare a telemarketer. (I did this awhile ago when I meowed at the person.)
4. Road trip somewhere. 
5. Go on a camping trip.
6. Confess to a crush that I like him. (What the heck was I thinking?! I can barely talk to someone I like. How am I suppose to tell him I like him? SIGH.)
7. Stay at a ranch for a week. 
8. Take a cruise somewhere exciting.
9. Find the purpose of my life.
10. Volunteer somewhere worthwhile.
11. Rent and stay at a beach house for a week. (Frances, didn't we want to do this when we were in HS?)
12. Hug or compliment 3 strangers. (I've probably done this many times although I can't think of a particular incident.)
13. Leave an anonymous gift for someone.
14. Buy something antique.
15. Ride a horse or elephant. (Rode a horse, but never an elephant. I don't know if I really want to ride an elephant anymore. I feel sorry for them.)
16. Get married and have 3 children. (I've always wanted an odd number of children.)
17. Be successful at my career.
18. Go to a spa and get a full treatment.
19. Go to all 50 states. (Oh, I can't wait until I do this one.)
20. Get a pet.
21. Visit a ghost town.
22. Try to eat 5 different foods that I would not normally eat.
23. Have some sort of collection. (What don't I collect? I have books, stickers, pins, stamps, coins, etc. I'm a bit obsessive.)
24. Have a picnic by the beach. 
25. Receive a love letter. (No one has actually ever written me a love letter.)

There you have it, folks. It looks like I should get the ball rolling, and actually do something soon. Like now.