What would it be like if I didn't have taste buds? Would I bother with eating? Would eating become a chore? Would I be more obsessed with textures? Would I be super thin because I wouldn't eat anything bad? Would I still be happy if I didn't crave anything? Would I rather be thin with no taste buds or chubbier with tons of cravings?
I know what you are thinking (Crazy much?), but I sometimes think about these kinds of things when I am in class.
Hang, again you have intrigued me with you posts, you remind me a little of myself when I was young, the low self-esteem etc. I will say because of it I was drawn into a marriage for need of being loved and it turned out to be a disaster. My thinking little of my self, set up or tempted my husband to think little of me also and treat me abusively… I might add he had very low self-esteem himself and needed someone to look down on. If you think about it, you may see that in your ex-boyfriend. Really, I believe everyone has some self-esteem problems… the people who seem so self-assured are hiding behind their put on self-assurance. We all come into the world whole, innocent and very close to the beauty of Truth, but what was done to our parents, guardians is passed down to us in some form or another. That’s part of the journey of life; you have all you need for a happy, blessed life right inside yourself. Practice being still and learn from inside yourself, DON’T DOUBT you are as whole and wonderful and love as every creature God has created… watch your needs, as you begin to understand them and actually give them up you will grow stronger and happier from the inside outward… learn to love yourself and you will learn to love others and you will not feel the need to be love, and love will come.
ReplyDeleteHope you don’t mind my saying so much… your sister in spirit.. Jean Caroline