I have been really a downer lately. I have noticed that my blog posting has gotten a lot more depressing over the years, and I apologize. I don't mean to be, but growing up has been so hard.
I had more devastating news this week. My parents employer think my parents are too old, and we have a feeling it's only a matter of time when they will be let go. It's not paranoia... it's a fact, and it is something that I am not really ready to deal with.
I know that I should have a fabulous job by now, and should have retired my parents a long time ago. I'm in my mid 20s for goodness sake, but at the same time I feel cheated. My mother was almost 40 when she had me, and it has forced me to grow up that much faster. She's elderly now, and shouldn't be having to work, but my brother and I are not prepared to take care of them yet. It puts my brother and I in a hard position. Don't get me wrong, I am not complaining. I love my mother and father, and I wish they had me younger so I could have more time with them. I just don't know what I should do to take care of them.
The only thing that is keeping me sane is optimism. I am hopeful a solution will appear or that I will be presented with a job opportunity. It has to work out. I know it will, but it has been extremely stressful to be in this position. I am literally living on prayers. :)
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