Another Fear

I believe that I may fear going to the optometrist. Every time I go, my eyes end up getting far worse. At this rate I may go blind in a few years. I fear it.

I loathe getting my eye exam because I always feel like the optometrist is going to tell me I have cancer in my eyes or something along that line. Dramatic much? Why yes I am.

After the countless, "Is one more clear or is two?" I started to think that my eyes were much worse. I just couldn't read the letters. Why can't my eyes become stable so I can get laser eye surgery someday?

The optometrist then proceeded to tell me that I have extremely dry eyes, and probably no contacts will ever be that comfortable for me. I'll always have to deal with itchy dry eyes, and that I have to face the fact that I will sometimes be a pirate because my contacts like to pop out.

I envy people who can sleep in their contact. I envy the people with perfect vision.

At least my eyes didn't get that much worse. I thought it would be worse than it actually was. :)