What Hang Dreams About

I woke up in a fright today. 

I had dreamt that while I was visiting my Geology teacher during her office hours, she had told me that secretly hated Geology. She then proceeded to tell me she wished she had stuck with being a lawyer, and that I should just not even bother getting into the field.

My subconscious was telling me something. 

I know that it's my insecurities that are taking over. I am paranoid that I won't be able to do it even though I really want to. I'm afraid I'll never make it, and that stresses me completely out.

I am terrible at math, and the thought that I will have to do well in calculus freaking scares me. What's worse is that I have to take Biology, Chemistry, and Physics (EVILNESS). How will I survive? I can already see myself huddled in a ball, and crying. 

Science and math isn't really my thing. I can handle Political Science, Law, History, and even English classes. I actually did well in my paralegal classes.

Even though I know that Chemistry, Biology, and Physics isn't my thing, I LOVE Geology, Environmental Science, and Earth Science. I enjoy learning about the Earth, and love being in nature.

There's something so peaceful about being out in the open. The world stops whenever I go to a National Park, take a hike, or relax on the beach. There's just so much to see, and I want to see it all. I love nature with all my heart, and it makes me extremely happy.

I just hope I have the brain power to get there. I have to make it through the evil classes before I can ever take the classes I want. 

It's going to be on painful ride. I just hope I'll be able to do it.

It also doesn't help that today I am 23 1/2. I feel so old, and unaccomplished.

P.S. I'm sorry that my post has become a bit depressing lately. I hope you all still love me!